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Hugging trees

Oh Autumn speak to me...

Walking through the glass doors and entering the campus with a cup of coffee in her hands Autumn avoids the crowd through a back staircase. Her eyes are glassy and her mind is wrestling through endless thoughts. Throughout the last few months keeping secrets is what she has been best known for. She gives off fake smiles and nods of approval, but inside a ocean hurricane is stirring through her mind. Her only escape is within inked paper or inked screens,  whispered prayers, and smoke from a beautiful flame. They tell her, " Oh Autumn speak to me..."

Autumn leaves.

Summer has ended  and Fall has slivered its way through the Colorado mountains. The leaves have begun changing colors and the wind is a bit stronger. The sunset is earlier and the sunrise is later.  The animals are gathering twigs, branches, and all of natures offerings to endure a warm cozy home for Winters bitter cold snow. As the days go on I smile with the change because I am making amends in my life. As the season changes I feel the change in me as well. I prefer the warm sun, green grass, the animals roaming free, and the flowers blooming beautifully, but nonetheless the autumn change is just what I needed. I will strive to make the most of it. Late night study sessions, writing love letters to my soldier, plenty of coffee and baking in the kitchen, movie nights with my girls and plenty of talking, boots and cute winter jackets are a plus as well! Let's rejoice and be glad! There is a silver lining in every cloud and there is joy in every season.

My heart beat.

For so many years I believed I could never achieve my goals, but now I am graduating high school and my self esteem has rose. I have blossomed into a beautiful young woman and yes I am letting the world know it. Before I let people push me around and I had no belief that I would do well. I did a lot of stupid things, but I have learned from each one of them. I felt that my own family didn't believe in me. I looked up to all the wrong people in order to find myself. I dated the wrong men to feel loved. I abused my body. Till this day I feel that my own flesh & blood don't believe in me. It breaks my heart and always has, but the one thing that always keeps me going is God, my friends, my fiancee, some family, and my Grandmother Linda Sandoval who passed several years ago, but she lives still within my heart. I want to thank all of you who have believed in me and helped me become true to myself. You know who you are. From all my lessons learned I do believe I will graduate college with my  Master's in Mass Communication and that someday I will marry and be a wonderful wife & mother.

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Nature's finest.

As I walk across my front lawn I inhale oxygen and smile sweetly at the world around me. Such beauty and color is flowing around us. I can never capture it all in one viewing, the world is to great in size. So I stroll further down the path of Crestaloma Drive and admire the structured homes and the families that live happily in them. As I continue my journey I yonder towards the Regency park and ponder life's meaning and how we came about. I think about God, religion, and theory. Everything happens for a reason and so I have chosen to forgive and let go. Regret was only tormenting my spirit. With this my only hope is to achieve many great deeds and strive to bring peace on this planet Earth. Thoughts and thoughts flood through my cranium and I begin to feel overwhelmed, so i take a breather and look around me. I hear birds singing and I see the trees moving from the wind's cry. Nature's finest will be in your own opinion and perspective, but in my head it is beauty of life and how lucky we are to live.

I see the finger prints that you left on the entrance of my heart and I see the blood stains you left on the exit

I see the finger prints that you left on the entrance of my heart and I see the blood stains you left on the exit. I have a forgiving policy but, I do not give refunds on forgetting. My past is full of mistakes, but I see it as a learning experience. My reputation is one thing but, my character is what counts. Jen you are a slut and a coward. These are the names I have been called. I see those as just brands people label each other by. It is quite morose how our world can be so cruel. From such encounters I have grown and matured. My self-esteem is higher and my confidence has sky rocketed. I don't see violence as a way to solve problems. I personally have never fought another human being in my life and my intentions have always been good. God said, " love your neighbor". Truthfully their are several people on this planet earth that I don't get along with, but I see that there is no reason to harm them physically or emotionally. Silence tells the truth and being the sunflower in the field of weeds is what I am. I will bite my tongue when another speaks cold words to me. It will only go so far though as well. I hope to set a positive example for others. Peace be with you.

My favorite singer; Michelle Branch, her acoustic version of Sooner or Later.

Michelle Branch - "Sooner or Later" Live Acoustic

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