I see the finger prints that you left on the entrance of my heart and I see the blood stains you left on the exit

I see the finger prints that you left on the entrance of my heart and I see the blood stains you left on the exit. I have a forgiving policy but, I do not give refunds on forgetting. My past is full of mistakes, but I see it as a learning experience. My reputation is one thing but, my character is what counts. Jen you are a slut and a coward. These are the names I have been called. I see those as just brands people label each other by. It is quite morose how our world can be so cruel. From such encounters I have grown and matured. My self-esteem is higher and my confidence has sky rocketed. I don't see violence as a way to solve problems. I personally have never fought another human being in my life and my intentions have always been good. God said, " love your neighbor". Truthfully their are several people on this planet earth that I don't get along with, but I see that there is no reason to harm them physically or emotionally. Silence tells the truth and being the sunflower in the field of weeds is what I am. I will bite my tongue when another speaks cold words to me. It will only go so far though as well. I hope to set a positive example for others. Peace be with you.

My favorite singer; Michelle Branch, her acoustic version of Sooner or Later.

Michelle Branch - "Sooner or Later" Live Acoustic

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Summer Breeze.

I dance modestly along the Arkansas River, with my head held high, and my favorite song playing through my head phones. It is just me and my music swaying in nature. I see fresh water following along with a load roar. I see wildflowers and grass growing near by. It is such a delight. I could spend hours in this heavenly place. Ahh, how I miss those summer days.

Better days.

I've made my mistakes, I've hit rock bottom, I've stumbled upon many broken roads, but in the end I lifted my wings and flew again. It was harder than hell and tougher than stone, but I managed. People say I am a bad person, a slut, and a girl with no self esteem, but they are wrong. They don't know my life story or what I have been through. Only God can judge. I have built a wall with respect for my dignity and love for my heart. I am a changed young lady. I have lost many friends, but I have realized this was because I finally stood my ground and didn't let people walk over me like carpet. I can't please everyone, sorry. I have learned my lesson and I appreciate my friends who love, who understand, and are who helping me get through this. I know my past, I know my present, and I am looking forward to these better days.

Dancing among the stars.

    A pink summer dress, black ballerina flats, and my wedding ring is all I will need when I dance across the universe with you. I can see it perfectly. The sun and moon will shine brightly upon us and the stars will be our dance floor. Ecstasy will flow through our souls and happiness through our hearts, because love will only exist. When I am with you nothing else matters. You blow my mind and I am only focused on you. You are the drug I am addicted to. I can't hide it, I love you more than life itself. I would risk anything to fight for our love. I would take a bullet to save you. So let me sing to you sweetly and let's dance among the stars my darling!

2010 has finally arrived!

 Overall 2009 was a challenging year for me. I experienced heartache, pain, and suffering, but also experienced love. I met new people, traveled new places, read new books, but most importantly, I found my true inner self. I realized life is a precious gift and It shouldn't be wasted on fear. I overcame many fears and even rock climbed a 44 foot wall. Based on this experience I came to realize life is just like rock climbing, it gets tough in certain places, but if you overcome it, you will reach the top! I felt so moved by this! I now feel as long as I try I can pursue anything! I have gained a lot of self confidence and my goals are being pursued! I have control over my own life and I will longer tolerate being taken for granted. I give praise and thanks to my family, my fiance Alec Montelongo, my dear friends, and those who have helped me grow!

Connecting the dots.

You look into the mirror and see a face staring back at you. It mocks your every move. It could even talk back to you, if you tried.

I puzzle what I see looking back at me. I see beauty and caramel coated skin, but if I look deep within the soul I see pain and confusion. This girl has so much potential but she doesn't know which path to follow. In her mind she pictures herself in Manhattan, pursuing her dreams as a Journalist, drinking Chai, and reading great novels. She wants her significant other to love her just as much as she loves him. She wishes her mother hadn't forsaken her. She pursues a dream to change the world with her inner peace and dreams.